Memorial Day 2017
I have no thoughts on the topic, but today and yesterday were pain days. Weather related? It's been cold and rainy and humid. Moreso than normal for this weekend. Summer is in just 3 weeks, and it's still not breaking 80 degrees. When I think back to the year Jesse was born, 1980, when it was over 100 degrees for a whole week when we came home from the hospital. Poor kid! We used to take baths in cold water together just to cool down.
But the pain in the knees, that's a bother.
I got gel injections in both knees, a set of three shots. Each time, the right knee protested, and the left knee was fine. After this last shot, I haven't been able to straighten my right leg to lock the knee. I won't be able to march past Kelly's this year as a result, which is annoying. And after this last shot, my left knee is feeling strained in the muscle.
That's a bother.
People don't seem to realize what constant pain can do to a person. I'm afraid to get up and do anything. I always feel stressed even though I have nothing to actually stress about.
And still, I'm not happy. And as I've said before, I'm content, I'm not sad. I just don't feel happiness. I miss that.
Monday, May 29, 2017
Tuesday, May 2, 2017
A Whole Effing Year and Some
Clearly, I suck at blogging.
But 2016 was a tumultuous year for me. I nearly had a nervous breakdown finishing out the school year, and I decided it was time to retire before the Common Core frenzy and PARCC madness got even madder (which it did).
The moment I said I was retiring, a wave of peace came over me.
The biggest issue I have with retirement, however, is that depression is taking over. I did swim a lot at the gym over the summer, and did some yoga, but then everything began to shut down in October.
Naturally I put on weight, so there's that. I stopped going to the gym when I hurt my knees, and then I broke my foot again, which caused me to sprain the left knee further. I went to the Rothman Institute and they're going to fix me up with some knee gel to replace the cartilage.
I began seeing a chiropractor, and I found that I had some levroscoliosis, meaning my back was all twisted and wrenched to the left, and some vertebrae were even a little skewed. But he fixed me up.
And I got a medication for my restless legs syndrome! That's been a true miracle.
In November, I picked up my steampunk thingie and began writing again, and that feels like accomplishment. I even got to a writers con in March.
The best fun has been playing with Blessed Sacrament and becoming the music director for Bracken Cavaliers. The Bracken people are so appreciative, and at our last show, many of my friends said I had done a fabulous job -- they sounded like a drum corps! I feel pretty good about that!
So, here it is the beginning of May. I'm still trying to get up in the morning -- I just plain can't get out of bed. I know that if I could get up before 8, I'd be able to do so much more with my retired life! But I just keep cocooning.
Let's see if blogging about it works.
But 2016 was a tumultuous year for me. I nearly had a nervous breakdown finishing out the school year, and I decided it was time to retire before the Common Core frenzy and PARCC madness got even madder (which it did).
The moment I said I was retiring, a wave of peace came over me.
The biggest issue I have with retirement, however, is that depression is taking over. I did swim a lot at the gym over the summer, and did some yoga, but then everything began to shut down in October.
Naturally I put on weight, so there's that. I stopped going to the gym when I hurt my knees, and then I broke my foot again, which caused me to sprain the left knee further. I went to the Rothman Institute and they're going to fix me up with some knee gel to replace the cartilage.
I began seeing a chiropractor, and I found that I had some levroscoliosis, meaning my back was all twisted and wrenched to the left, and some vertebrae were even a little skewed. But he fixed me up.
And I got a medication for my restless legs syndrome! That's been a true miracle.
In November, I picked up my steampunk thingie and began writing again, and that feels like accomplishment. I even got to a writers con in March.
The best fun has been playing with Blessed Sacrament and becoming the music director for Bracken Cavaliers. The Bracken people are so appreciative, and at our last show, many of my friends said I had done a fabulous job -- they sounded like a drum corps! I feel pretty good about that!
So, here it is the beginning of May. I'm still trying to get up in the morning -- I just plain can't get out of bed. I know that if I could get up before 8, I'd be able to do so much more with my retired life! But I just keep cocooning.
Let's see if blogging about it works.
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