Summer's Ending Soon

Jack took yesterday off, and we spent the day at the pool. I'm browner than I've ever been, though I don't know if that's a good thing. Still, there's nothing like lounging and swimming, lounging and swimming. It has been a glorious summer that way.

I haven't gotten much done, although I've done more than I have most summers. Got my computer desk superficially clean. I still have to go through the stuff that's in the drawers. Then I cleaned off the first shelf and got rid of the school textbooks and old paper. Well, didn't get rid of yet, since it's sitting on the table in the living room waiting for me to do that.

Wendy Delmater Thies wants me to become her fiction editor for Abyss & Apex online magazine. No pay, I'm sure, but significant status.

My weight is down to 226.8 today. I'm liking the fact that it's going down. I miss eating though. It's all fruit fruit fruit all day. I would love a huge mass of chocolate cake topped with a hot fudge sundae.

The CBD oil is helping with the arthritis pain, although my knees I think are irreparable. We'll find out next week when we both go see Dr. Gupta at the Rothman Institute again.

England is approaching, and I don't like it one bit.

Pain Sucks

Last Thursday, Dr. Davidoff called to say that not only do I have a fatty liver, but also steatohepatitis, meaning some of the liver is damaged, maybe permanently. He said I can no longer take any NSAID or other arthritis medication.

So since Friday morning, I have been in incredible pain in my feet, my knees, my hips, my neck, and my hand, all of which has given me a tension headache.

I bought cannibidiol, cbd oil, based on recommendations from a lot of people I know with similar pain. It comes in flavors, and I chose vanilla, but it doesn't taste like vanilla; it tastes like I'm chewing on leaves. It's awful. I put it in my banana shake, which gives it a bad aftertaste but at least ameliorates the nasty a bit.

Meanwhile, today I need to see the doc to get hepatitis A and B vaccinations. I'll talk to him about pain relief too.

I got to babysit Eliana yesterday while Jesse and Liz went out to brunch. It's their last week home together. Eliana was cluster feeding, just like Buddy, every 45 minutes or so, but then she fell asleep on me about an hour before they got home. It was nice.

The sun is finally out after five days of rain. And I'm finally down to 228, so back to the pool for more exercise.

A year

It's a year since I came back home. I think things are so much better between us. I really pray I'm not wrong.

This has been a nice summer. We go to the pool almost every day. Can't believe how tan I am. It's so nice even just lying on a lounger next to him. And I love swimming up to him and kissing.

I want so much to ask him if she's contacted him other than that postcard. I just don't want to give him a chance to lie.

Had a wonderful Friday. Wendy Delmater Thies stopped in for a visit on her way to NY. We chatted all day. It was funny, at one point she asked me why I feel we're friends. I laughed, thinking back to the night we met. We talked together for hours, perfect strangers / immediate friends. So much fun.

Got two immediate goals: clean up my computer corner and start pushing for 1000 words a day again.

Going to try to make that happen.

And here's Eliana!